When I grow up I want to be...

The first winter of our marriage was spent in freezing Montana Brrrrrr. I remember one night I was cold and just wanted something warm to eat, John offered to make me some oatmeal. It was the worst bowl of oatmeal ever made a chimp on a space shuttle could have made a better bowl; it was lumpy and crunchy. Being a new wife and not wanting to hurt John's feelings I ate the said bowl of oats and vowed to never allow him to cook for me again.



Fast forward four years.......



We have struggled so hard financially these last four years, it was with our faith in Heavenly Father that we choose to have another baby. John and I were afraid to tell our parents that we were expecting again. John and I have know that John needs some kind of education; but he just could never decided what he wanted to do. we have discussed law enforcement, teaching and even joining the army but nothing fits.

These last four years John has found his hidden talent in the kitchen. I giggle thinking about the first bowl of oatmeal he ever made me compared to now. So I'm so excited that he has finally decided what he wants to be when he grows up. He starts Le Cordon Bleu College of Culinary Arts on November 8Th. He is going to be chef, I'm so happy for him he's so excited and nervous. He is doing their associates degree program and then we might go ahead and do the bachelors degree program. However with his associates he will still make a pretty good living for us. I'm so happy for him I can't wait to see all the yummy things he learns how to make.

AND THEN................

AND THEN.... has become our motto these days when we tell a story we can always say AND THEN. For example Sage passed away AND THEN CPS took Kaitlen from our home for a month AND THEN Royal broke his hand and needed surgery AND THEN Crystal and Spencer get in a car accident AND THEN John lost his job......... I Think I could go on for five pages with AND THEN.

Saturday was Amanda's baby shower Crystal did an awesome job, the decorations, food all of it was so cool. (Mom has pictures she will post soon) anyway I was in the kitchen finishing up some last minute things AND THEN... Amanda yelled that Caden was hurt. AND THEN I went into the living room picked him up and noticed his mouth was bleeding. We don't know how he did it but he managed to push his front tooth all the way forward it was awful it took all I had not to cry. John G. came from down stairs he gave Caden a blessing AND THEN he pushed my little mans tooth back into place. It was the worst thing I couldn't help but cry. Hubby John and I took him to an ER they said he was fine; that John G. did the right thing to push his tooth back. I'm taking him to a pediatric. dentist on Monday just in case he is hurt worse then it looks.

Just for the record I'm sooooo sick of AND THEN....... no more AND THEN........

Take a deep breath

Take a deep breath and breathe, everything is changing. One thing will always stay the same NOTHING CAN BREAK US not Sage's passing and not this. Thank you to our amazing husbands for stepping up and being Men. That's why our heavenly Father created son in laws. For times like these. I have a deep love for Spencer and John G. My John thank you for being my rock and letting me cry and for letting me be in a crappy mood. For holding me like a child and rubbing my head. I Love you.

Clarification

My last post seemed to confuse some of you, after reading it I can see why Oops that's what I get for blogging while I'm tired and upset. So let me explain; I was talking to Crystal about whats been going on in our family this past week and with all the wisdom of a 90 year old grandma she talked to me about "The Stupid Cow" talk that was given in conference during the second session on Sunday. She told me that the cow had a pen with his food in it but he choose to poke his head out of it and eat the wheat. That he kept on eating and eating until his belly swelled up and he died. The cow broke the rules that were made for him he choose to nibble a little until his nibbling killed him. This talk has help our family this past week so now as a joke or just out of sadness and frustration we will say "YOU STUPID COW"

I have the BEST big sister in this entire world she has been threw the worst possible thing a mother can ever go threw and yet she is the one holding our family together I love her and respect her more then words can explain.

So here is to you "YOU STUPID COW"

Thanks Big Sister

All I have to say right now is .............. "YOU STUPID COW"

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I Like to Move it Move it

When I started having babies 8 1/2 years ago I was told that babies grow and develop at their own pace. Most little ones roll over at 2-3 months, can sit up at around 6 months, crawl at 8 months and walking at 12 months. I look forward too each new stage that my baby makes. I remember being sad when my Payten began crawling at five months and walking at seven months. She was my baby being that Kaitlen is 5 1/2 years older then Pay. I was looking forward to having a tiny baby to take care of. But to my amazement she was in a huge hurry to grow up I was bummed that she didn't stay "babyish" for awhile. Then we got pregnant with Caden I was so excited to be getting a baby boy, a son to love. Again I was hoping that this time my baby would not be in such a hurry to grow up. I was hoping that because he was a he that he would be slower at sitting up, crawling and walking. I have heard that boys are sometimes slower at developing. Let me tell you I was not shocked when my five month old sat up and began crawling all on the same day. Caden is now six months old and he crawls everywhere; he scares me when he goes from a sitting position to his knees I just hold my breath and hope he doesn't smack his face on the carpet 8 out of 10 times he is a pro the other two times he needs a few loves. I'm greatful that my little man still loves to nurse and he always has kisses for me. Half the time he is crawling to find me if I'm in a diffeent room then he is. I'm just so thankful that he is here and I get to be the one to take care of him even though he is in such a hurry to grow up.


Caden's Great Grandpa and Great Grandma Marry gave him his white teddy bear
He LOVES to play with his cousins. The older kids are so nice to let him sit and play they all look after him.
My little man!