Santa gets all the Love

This morning I was getting Kaitlen ready for school and she was telling me what she wants from Santa.........

ME: Kaitlen what do you want from Santa?

KT: I want a DS Mom

ME: Wow that's a pretty tall request I'm not sure if Santa can get a DS.

KT: Mom a DS is small it's like this (she draws an outline in the air)

I love how innocent kids are she has no idea that a DS cost a lot of money. Little does she know that I love her and Haven so much that I was standing in line at Walmart freakin early with Aunt Amanda on Black Friday so that I could make their Christmas the best. For 89 bucks a piece Santa will fulfill their Christmas wish. I can't forget to give a shout out to mom and Aunt Crystal for making sure Payten gets her Barbie Power wheel Jeep from Santa that was on sale for 88 bucks on Black Friday. Needless to say I'm excited for Christmas, to bad Santa gets all the credit!

baby jack jack

Caden's nick name has become Jack Jack, he is so little but he's always trying to do big things! I love this little boy so much.

Wasn't Enough Time

My baby will be 8 months old next Thursday, he will be 8 months and 2 days next Saturday. My nephew passed away at 8 months and 2 days; 19 months ago my brother in law found Sage in his crib not breathing. The day Caden was born I have always feared for the day my son would be 8 months and 2 days old. In my mind I think what if I only have 9 more days to kiss on him, hold him, be with him. 8 months isn't long enough at all.

Tonight Crystal and Spencer gave Caden, Sage's Santa toy they were so happy to put it together for him and even more excited to see him play with it. It's not fair Caden should have been playing with an old toy that Sage grew out of, the toy has been around longer then he was. I'm scared for next Saturday to come I'm so scared that I don't think I will be able to lay him in his bed that night. I know how retarded this sounds but every mother knows how much they love their babies and the thought of not having him with me in 9 days makes me cry. It hasn't been long enough I'm just getting to know him.

Crystal and Spencer are truly the strongest two people I have ever met, they have blessed my life with their faith in Heavenly Father and their love for each other everyday. I know how selfish this sounds it's not about me or my son I'm just afraid bad things happen all the time. Okay so this post is truly my ramblings sorry....

I'm not tired yet Mom

After a long day of moving and playing with her cousins, Payten refused to go to bed because she was not tired. She pulled all the crayons out of the basket and was going to color me a picture. She lasted all but two minutes before she crashed.
She fell asleep holding her crayon!

First Football Game

John has waited forever to have a boy to share his love of football with. On Sunday and Monday night's John will take Caden and go watch football with him. He loves having his son with him to share his favorite sport with.



John and Caden at RaLee's last home football game.

When I grow up I want to be...

The first winter of our marriage was spent in freezing Montana Brrrrrr. I remember one night I was cold and just wanted something warm to eat, John offered to make me some oatmeal. It was the worst bowl of oatmeal ever made a chimp on a space shuttle could have made a better bowl; it was lumpy and crunchy. Being a new wife and not wanting to hurt John's feelings I ate the said bowl of oats and vowed to never allow him to cook for me again.



Fast forward four years.......



We have struggled so hard financially these last four years, it was with our faith in Heavenly Father that we choose to have another baby. John and I were afraid to tell our parents that we were expecting again. John and I have know that John needs some kind of education; but he just could never decided what he wanted to do. we have discussed law enforcement, teaching and even joining the army but nothing fits.

These last four years John has found his hidden talent in the kitchen. I giggle thinking about the first bowl of oatmeal he ever made me compared to now. So I'm so excited that he has finally decided what he wants to be when he grows up. He starts Le Cordon Bleu College of Culinary Arts on November 8Th. He is going to be chef, I'm so happy for him he's so excited and nervous. He is doing their associates degree program and then we might go ahead and do the bachelors degree program. However with his associates he will still make a pretty good living for us. I'm so happy for him I can't wait to see all the yummy things he learns how to make.

AND THEN................

AND THEN.... has become our motto these days when we tell a story we can always say AND THEN. For example Sage passed away AND THEN CPS took Kaitlen from our home for a month AND THEN Royal broke his hand and needed surgery AND THEN Crystal and Spencer get in a car accident AND THEN John lost his job......... I Think I could go on for five pages with AND THEN.

Saturday was Amanda's baby shower Crystal did an awesome job, the decorations, food all of it was so cool. (Mom has pictures she will post soon) anyway I was in the kitchen finishing up some last minute things AND THEN... Amanda yelled that Caden was hurt. AND THEN I went into the living room picked him up and noticed his mouth was bleeding. We don't know how he did it but he managed to push his front tooth all the way forward it was awful it took all I had not to cry. John G. came from down stairs he gave Caden a blessing AND THEN he pushed my little mans tooth back into place. It was the worst thing I couldn't help but cry. Hubby John and I took him to an ER they said he was fine; that John G. did the right thing to push his tooth back. I'm taking him to a pediatric. dentist on Monday just in case he is hurt worse then it looks.

Just for the record I'm sooooo sick of AND THEN....... no more AND THEN........